Summer Blues

I haven't written lately because, frankly, I haven't had much to write or had much desire.
I don't know if it is the lack of projects, lack of interaction with multiple people on a daily basis or what, but I always seem to suffer from the Summer Blues. The blues usually start at the end of June and last quite awhile.
I have been looking for a new job, without much luck. I have had 2 INCREDIBLE interviews and really thought I'd hear something by now. I have been in a REAL pinch financially, the paychecks just don't seem to stretch as far when I'm home for the summer.I struggle constantly with trying to help out everyone and solve every ones problems. I had a big fight with a friend that shook me to the core. I have been worried and generally about to lose it for a few weeks.
With all the stress I've been under, I got scared and then just lost it like a total crazy person. I have been so sick with regret the past few days I have just closed myself off.
So all of that is just keeping me blue.
What do I do to fix any of those things? I don't know. I don't know if I can. All I know to do at this point is pray. Pray for God to intervene. Pray for forgiveness. Pray that I can accept that I have messed up in a lot of situations and do my best to not mess up again. Pray that I am given second chances where second chances can be given. Pray that I do not let my past dictate my future.
My past. There is a blog entry that would go on forever. The physical, mental, and emotional abuse I have endured in my dating life has held me back from trusting people for so long. I don't want that to be the case any longer. However, it may be too late for it to matter in certain instances.
All I can do though, is move forward from my mistakes and not let my past interfere anymore. I just hope I can prove to people, and myself, that the realization I had last week was not a fluke and I have really put all those things behind me.
God says to lay all your cares upon Him for He cares for you. He says that we need to forgive those who trespass against us. I firmly believe that if I don't do this, if I can't lay it all down and forgive those boys (because they aren't men) who hurt me...I won't be able to let anyone in and I will be kept from God and from finding my happiness.
I just hope that those that I have hurt or made angry can find it in THEIR hearts to forgive me and give me another chance.